Friday, June 15, 2007
7 facts about me... first - istudyante ako. second - hindi na ko marunong matulog. like last night, i slept at 3am and woke up around 6am. third - bugnutin ako. kasi siguro wala nga akong tulog. fourth - masungit ako (parang pareho din un ng third) fifth - pangarap kong maging singer. walang pakelamanan ng pangarap. sixth - trip ko umiyak gabi-gabi. seventh - magulo brains ko. parang wala namang mga kwenta sinulat ko dito e. kasi siguro wala kang kwenta ela. hehehe... jezz! yup! miss ko na yung shawarma. sana makabalik tayo. o kaya sana magtayo sila ng branch sa tabi ng bahay namin. ~0'0~ Friday, June 08, 2007
Then and Now... Life is simpler when we were still kids. All we have to think about is whether we will be allowed to stay up late so that we can watch our favorite show. whether we will have cake on our birthdays. what gift we will get on christmas. and the only problem we have is having to take naps in the afternoon and eat vegetables for lunch. then... when I cry, I let the whole world know that I am crying. now... it's just me and the four walls of my room. then... when I get hurt, I have a big brother/sister/playmate to blame. now... i take all the blame. i could still remember when i hate to sleep because more sleep means less time to play... the time when I am so eager to wake up and face a new day. now.. sleep evades me and when i get to sleep, i am not looking forward to waking up. ...the time when somebody else is responsible for me. now, I am responsible. period. RESPONSIBILITY. it's a big thing. responsible for my own acts. other people. my own life. the ironies of life. also, there are just pains that seem not to heal. you pretend that it is okay 'coz you are forced to be okay. But it's there, you just choose not to recognize it's existence. so when i say i'm okay and it's ok... don't believe me. Did I mention that i hate white high-heeled shoes? matched with a tokong??? After today, things will be different. ~0'0~ Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Near yet so far... last night while filling out my form, i realized how close i am to my dreams. so close and yet so uncertain... still. as i inch closer to my dreams, the smaller my world gets. in the next few days, weeks, months, it will be just me and my books. work. school. home. and, i think, a few destruction from people who are patient and persistent enough to be part of my not so exciting life. and... i must admit. i miss them. wala na kong kaaway. wala ng pumapatol sa kabugnutan at topak ko. wala na ding may mga topak (ahmm.. meron din pero kakaiba mga topak ng mga to). wala ng nakakapikon. wala ng makausap ng seryoso tungkol sa buhay. wala ng boys. kaya eto.. ang bait bait ko na. nababaliw sa katahimikan at kaseryosohan ng buhay. ~0'0~ Saturday, June 02, 2007
:( nasira ko yung links ko... grrr... sila na lang yung natira. pati yung web counter... di ko na alam ibalik. kasi naman... pindot ng pindot. wala kasi akong magawa kaya naisip ko na pagkaabalahan ang blog na to. ayun.. nasira. hay... i've realized, there are just spaces in our hearts that nobody can replace no matter how much we try. it just hits me. early in the morning. middle of the night. at work. anywhere. at the most unexpected time. i miss them. want to know what keeps me busy and sane? this and grey's anatomy. ~0'0~ Wednesday, May 30, 2007
Sylvester at Tiendesitas... Nag-Tiendesitas kami yesterday. Bitin but fun.... kahit wala na kaming mga kaperahan ok din. kumain. naglakad. nagkwentuhan. sa car pa lang dami ng bloopers...
jen: ang cute ni tweety bird at ni ano... kelan pa nagsama si tweety at felix the cat?! isa pang hirit... jen: si taz? naman.. naman... si garfield yan. hehehe. It feels good to be with people. ~0'0~ Monday, May 28, 2007
SIM card... "sino tinatawagan mo", me. "yung sim ko", jen. "ha? nawala yung isang fone mo?", me. "hindi, yung other sim ko di ko makita kaya minimiskol ko", jen. "gusto mo tulungan kita imiskol ang SIM mo!?", me. napakaintelehenteng usapan talaga sa umaga. Tired. body. mind. soul. ~0'0~ Sunday, May 27, 2007
TGIF!? Friday night was a disaster. Too much truth and revelations on a Friday night weakens my heart. But I survived. It's true. How can a person you knew for almost three or four years become suddenly a stranger in a snap of a finger. That fast. And it is the disappointmet which I can't take. There may be things we don't understand... expectations that were not met. We may ask for reasons. we may ask for time. we may ask for space. We are given choices, and sometimes, the right ones are the hardest to make. How do you know when how much is too much? Too much too soon. Too much information. Too much fun. Too much love. Too much to ask... And when is it all just too much to bear? ~0'0~ Thursday, May 24, 2007
Random thoughts... Kahapon... masakit sya... in fairness. marks na lang sya ngayon. pero kung iisipin... konting pain lang yun compared sa sitwasyon ng iba. i hate hospitals. creepy talaga. i hate to see doctors. Funny how can an empty chair could suddenly make someone feel so sad. empty chair. empty space. emptiness. i miss home. suddenly, i don't crave for too much independence anymore. so much space but so little time to accomplish stuff. i don't just want to live. i want to enjoy life because it is uncomplicated. Antipolo. Bataan. Anywhere but here. ~0'0~ Sunday, May 20, 2007
Weekend! Had a fun weekend... we spent the whole day under the sun swimming and eating... The past weeks, I get to spend time with my family, pamangkins and cousins. And it was fun, i missed it.
wala pa pix nung swimming.. pics pala nila. di ako kasali. photographer ako e...
~0'0~ Saturday, May 19, 2007
Tha day that was... i'm supposed to attend the christening of rhyanne... pero i need to go home. swimmimg and wedding. tumawag na pala si alex. ang layo-layo na nya. dubai. dati pelikula lang yun e... ingat lex. i wish i could go back to the time when life is simpler. dati... i dreamed of studying here in manila. to work in manila. to live in manila. but now, i've done all... i want out of manila. ~0'0~
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